"No Matter what Happens, don't betray God.."

Hey folks! :) it's been quiet a while I didn't exist in my Blog.. How are you folks? doing great? ;)

Well, there's so much things I want to share.. :)
after passing last months, lots of things happened, even is happening still..




Let's see.. it's November now.. Praise Lord for that.. :)
Uhm, last month.. October..
I've been through a difficult times of my life..
Well, at that moment I was in pain, inside.. I was hurt.
Couldn't describe it in words, how did it feel..
that time I was like faarrr away from God... I was kinda like blaming God, like why did this happen to me? why didn't He protect me? He said He love me, but WHY?


yes. WHY.. It was my first question..
I was struggling with my exams when it happened..
Then I told God, "why did You do this to me? when I really have my exam? You do this to me, God?"
I was selfish.. 
Then I decided to ask suggestions from a sister that i know..
She said to me, "vi.. we never know what God's plans for our lives.. He knows the best for us.. This is His trail for you.. He wants you to be grow more in Him and have stronger faith in Him... Trust Him, read His words more, and listen to Him.." then she asked me this question ;
"Vi.. after what happened, do you still believe in Christ?" ..
that time i was crying, i was in pain.. not the hurt pain anymore, I realized how selfish i was..
i mean, I was blaming me for things that happened to me, which I didn't know what was God's purpose for that..
I cried and cried.. I asked her, "Sis.. do you think God will forgive me?"
She said "of course she will dear.. draw closer to Him.. He'll show you the way of light.."


after everything happened, I just did my exams with all my best. thou sometimes things just got into my head and i thought about it too much..
I was too worried about my exams.. I was worried that I actually would failed.
I prayed before I did the exams. I said to Him that please bless this paper, I surrendered all to Him and no matter happens is all by His grace.
I was very worried about my add math especially, math and Physics.. and actually other subjects.. because I knew that I couldn't  do or even get A* or A like all my friends.. I was in FEAR. FEAR of LOSS.. I didn't get much times study for my add math, I was too nervous therefore whatever I studied couldn't go into my head, my brain.. I was too scared.. scared of FALL. failing.
After the short of studying times that we student had because our exam's date was pushed forward because of certain thing, 2 weeks has gone.. finally we finished our exams. 


the next week (which is this week) we got our papers back.. I wasn't hope that much, (well yeah) .. I praise God, that I actually got better exam result than last semester. they weren't as bad as I thought. well except for my Math and Add Math and Physics. I asked my teachers, they both said I've done well, really well even this is better than last semester.
I was not satisfy, but I thank God for that. for all my subjects overall I really am thankful to God.
I learnt that actually when we surrender all we have to God, He will do the remaining.. He will do the rest.. We need no worry too much..


God is doing a really great planning in my life.. even though I don't know what is it. but now I want to fix my eyes and heart just to Him.. I want to really commit to Him, and I want to see the other miracles that coming towards my life. and my family <3


look, I am having problem with my friends. some misunderstanding, it hurts me a lot when I know about this. maybe i have done wrong things.. but i have never been told..
Friendship problems always happen to me, I don't know why.. 
God seems has His own planning for me, maybe He wants me to know more about friends, so I am facing these kind of problems..
thou it's hurts, A LOT.. but i am gonna face it, it's a grace.
Grace. yeah, If i am baptized one day I want my name to be Grace. I am a Grace, by God.


My friend told me, he said. God wants me to get through this because He wants me to be more stronger, and more matured. I just want these misunderstandings to be Over.. I am doing my best to solve this..


Thank You God, for giving me chances to learn from my own LIFE. from experience that You gave to me.. :)


Check Jayesslee concert in City Harvest Church guys. It's awesome. the testimony life that they shared. wow. I am inspired by them :)
They said .. "no matter what happens, do not betray God.." :)


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6u7Ps5SpzXA&feature=related

thank you for reading my blog! :)

May God Bless you all.. Keep REJOICE for the Lord :)
He always knows what's best for us even in the MOST BITTER stages our lives in. :)
Be strong :)

<3 Jesus loves all of us.
"when life is hard, lift you head up a little bit. because there's when God is closest to you.. " :')

Sidney Mohede Music celebration concert.

Friday, 29th July 2011.


that day was beautiful day, i thought it'd be just another last Friday for July 2011.
When I got back home from school, I saw my cousin was watching movie..
then I reminded that that day had Sidney Mohede concert!


Let me introduce you to SIdney.
he's an incredible guy, a great worship leader, the most humble man I've ever met, he always bring Jesus to his life, whatever the situation is, everything is come from Jesus.
I am sure y'all know True worshiper right? or last time he was in Giving My Best (GMB) .
If you don't know, you better check it out.
hahaha..
He's my inspire.. whn he leads a worship on stage, you can feel the atmosphere that he gives. you can feel the presence of God is there.
anyway, as Indonesian, I am very proud of him. :) 


so, that firday night. we decided to go, we bought the tickets in the place, the tickets weren't sold all, but thanks God there were still lots of people! :)
We attended the worship night, i was like! OH MY GOD. FINALLY. I NOW STANDING HERE TO NIGHT, SIDNEY'S CONCERT! NOW I CAN FEEL THE REAL ATMOSPHERE WHEN HE LEADS WORSHIP, NOT IN YOUTUBE ANYMORE!!!


It was just WOOW!!!!
then.. that night was until 10 plus.. we finished,, Sidney went to backstage. 
I actually went to backstage but used other way, well I was really WANT to take picture with him! THHEEEE.. 50 bucks for 1 night! for SIDNEY! 
I was really concern to take pictures with him!
so, I tweeted him!!!!
guess what?
He replied me!!!!
replied, I sent, replied, sent, replied, sent..
still couldn't meet him, we decided to go supper and not going to meet him.
but i forced well yeah, my cousin to go.. so she said, ok we go.
so we went to 101 ! 
I was shaking (i know kinda lame but yeah) , i mean. he's my inspire,. and that day i was going to meet him! in REAL!


so, with my other cousin help to force me to go call Sidney, I went..
I was like..
"Kak.. " he turned and.
"Stev. ya? " :')
the best moment i won't forget,. LOL.


then we talked for awhile only cos he needed to go to car.. 


Anyway, I won't forget him. :) 
He inspires me a lot. in my spiritual life with God. through his songs that he wrote I've been fall in love with those. :) 
the songs just describe truly what we feel to our God, Jesus Christ. :)


Thank you Sidney Mohede.
Hope to see you on other time!! :) 
come over to Kuching, even my hometown Ngabang!! hahahaha XD


God bless guys!!!


SHINE LIKE STARS. SIDNEY's new ALBUM. A HEART FOR YOU.

Segenap waktu dan usaha tidak ada yang sia-sia. everything's possible if there's a will and passion.

Jadi, hari ini aku mau bahas tentang impian..

Jelas aja dong semua orang punya impian, aku juga punya.. :) banyak malah..

Tapi, impian itu ngga terjadi ketika kita doa sama Tuhan "Tuhan akun pengen ini dong..." 

Nggak. semua nya butuh proses..

Aku terinspirasi sama tweet nya Jayesslee, tau dong penyanyi YouTube yang terkenal suara nya, yang terkenal cantiknya, dan  terutama terkenal akan iman mereka yang begitu kuat.

Lihat saja, tweet terakhir nya berbunyi seperti ini:

"A couple yrs ago we prayed a crazy prayer that we'd meet ps. @konghee & sing at his church. Tonight we met him & will be at @chcsg in 2wks!"

"Beberapa tahun yang lalu, kami berdoa sebuah doa gila, bahwa kami bisa bertemu dengan Pastor Kong Hee dan bernyanyi di gereja dia. Malam ini kami bertemu dia, dan kami akan berada di City Harvest Church dalam 2 minggu!"

Ini sebenar nya menunjukan bahwa, segenap waktu dan usaha ngga ada yang ngga mungkin, dan ngga ada yang sia-sia..

Lihat saja mereka, mereka sudah sukses! 

Namun, tetap saja.. semua butuh waktu, proses :)

Lihat aku.. kapok dengan mendapat nilai yang begitu jelek di semester kemarin, aku perlahan-lahan telah bisa menjauhkan diriku setidaknya sedikit-sedikit dari kebiasaan menghabiskan waktu didepan komputer..

Tuhan ingin aku menyadari bahwa kalau aku HANYA ingin mendapat nilai bagus, tapi tidak belajar dengan benar, emang dikira Tuhan bakal ngasih? kan seperti di katakan, iman tanpa perbuatan itu mati. Jadi, sama dengan ujian. kalau mau dapet nilai bagus, ya belajar.. kalau ngga, apa yang kamu tabur itulah yang kamu tuai.

Ingatkah moto  ini "kamu biasa karena bisa, kamu bisa karena biasa.." terbiasa melakukan sesuatu hal yang membuat kamu "ahli" dibidang tersebut, dan biisa melakukan hal tersebut membuat kamu terbiasa karena kamu menikmatinya. :)

Hidup emang sulit, sulit dimengerti, sulit memahami apa yang orang-orang fikirkan, namun semua itu bukan menjadi sebuah alasan untuk kita patah semangat. bukankan kita bisa menjadikan semua itu sebagai penyemangat? :D

Tidakkah kita ingat bahwa sebenar nya Tuhan, dan memang nyata, Tuhan itu selalu ada buat kitaa.

jadi, jangan patah semangat yah!

Aku sekarang mau melanjutkan perjalanan aku didunia ini, masih panjang :D 

Tentunya, selalulah aku minta tuntunan dan bimbingan dari Dia yang selalu menopangku. :)

Tuhan memberkati!

Mother's Day.

When I was young...
I was trying to catch the sun out there, 
I was trying to catch those butterflies, 
I was trying to run to catch them,
I was running and I fell down..
I was crying and crying..


Suddenly, two soft hands carried me,
CAUGHT me,
WIPED my tears,
Caress me,
and makes my world, my day seems so much better.


When I ..
feel so lonely, she's always there..
No one listens to me, she's always there listening to my stories.
feel so left out. she's always there and say "I am here"
Cry , she's THERE, and wipes my tears away..
scream at her, she's even STILL there, for me..
feel angry or mad at her, she's STILL there for me..
hurt her feeling, she FORGIVES me..
need her THE MOST, SHE IS THERE!
so bored, she takes my hands, and makes my day like a holiday.


WHENEVER I feel so whatever that I'm facing, she always there.
SHE IS the ONE that says "Don't worry, I am here, just for you"


She is the one who teaches me to be patience,
to be a real woman,
to be polite, 
to be faithful,
to be like HER,
to be diligent..


She is MY MOTHER. My MAMA. <3


Thank you ma, for all your love that you give to Hia2, Dede, and I.
Thank you ma, for all your sweats that you pour out just for us,
Thank you ma, for listen to me when no one listens to me.
Thank you ma, for making rainbow when the day is GREY.
Thank you ma, for all the awesome delicious foods,
Thank you ma, for all your caring,
Thank you ma, for your caress the only caress that can stop my tears,
Thank you ma, for keeping my secrets from Papa :3 hehehe :D
Thank you ma, for being the only mom that gives me everything,
Thank you ma, for your best love,
Thank you ma, for still and always loving and caring to us,
Thank you ma, for giving me such wonderful big brother and little brother :')
Thank you ma, for being understand,
Thank you ma, for holding my hands when I am lonely,
Thank you ma, for raising me up, become a daughter that like what you hope.
Thank you ma, for making all my bad days become so much better,
Thank you ma, for your PATIENCE, :')
Thank you ma, for being there, whenever i need you..
Thank you ma, for being a wonderful woman for Papa, and your children,
Thank you ma, for being so understand even when i make MISTAKES,
Thank you ma, providing us enough foods, and all shelters, and EDUCATION.
Thank you ma, for trust in us as your children,
Thank you ma, for all these facilities that you gave,
Thank you ma, for you FAITHFUL HEART.
Thank you ma, FOR EVERYTHING


THANK YOU MAMA FOR EVERYTHING, WHICH I CAN'T WRITE, SAY, DESCRIBE ONE BY ONE, but for whatever that you've done. thanks Mama!


We love you so much Ma, we believe that you know it. 
Ma, we'll make you proud,
We'll be for what you want us to be, even be more than that,
we'll love you forevermore.
We'll give both of you for what you're dreaming for.
WE WILL SUCCESS / SUCCEED one day and bring both of you to all over the world. 


and ma, we wish you always healthy,
take care of your self there, me miss you a lot here ma..
Sometimes, tears just come up from my hearts when I see kids with their moms.
I hurt when I see kids don't appreciate their mom..
MA, we wish, one day, you and Papa will come and know JESUS CHRIST. :')


We want both of you to know about HIM, about HIS wonderful LOVE.
We will wait for that day, the day both of you will know about HIM.
We will prove to both of you and HE IS ALIVE.


We LOVE you always ma...
Thank you.. thank you for everything, just everything.


God Bless you always <3


LOVE, STEPHAN LEE, STEVI LEE and HENDRO LEE.

Thank you for this WONDERFUL family.