when GRACE comes in, Guilt moves OUT.

I Choose Love…No occasion justifies hatred; no injustice warrants bitterness. I choose love. Today I will love God and what God loves.

I Choose Joy… 
I will invite my God to be the God of circumstance. I will refuse the temptation to be cynical. I will refuse to see people as anything less than human beings, created by God. I will refuse to see any problem as anything less than an opportunity to see God.

I Choose Peace… 
I will live forgiven. I will forgive so I may live.

I Choose Patience… 
I will overlook the inconveniences of the world. Instead of cursing the one who takes my place, I’ll invite him to do so, Rather complain that the wait is to long, I will thank God for a moment to pray. Instead of clenching my fist at new assignments, I will face them with joy and courage.

I Choose Kindness… 
I will be kind to the poor, for they are alone. Kind to the rich, for they are afraid. And kind to the unkind, for that is how God has treated me.

I Choose Goodness…
I will go without a dollar before I take a dishonest one. I will be overlooked before I will boast. I will confess before I accuse. I choose goodness

I Choose Faithfulness… 
Today I will keep my promises. My debtors will not regret their trust. My friends will not question my word. And my family will not question my love.

I Choose Gentleness… 
Nothing is won by force. I choose to be gentle. If I raise my voice may it only be in praise. If I clench my fist, may it only be in prayer. If I make a demand, may it be only of myself.

I Choose Self-Control… 
I refuse to let what will rot, rule the eternal. I choose self-control. I will be drunk only by joy. I will be impassioned only by my faith. I will be influenced only by God. I will be taught only by Christ. I choose self-control.

Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, Faithfulness, Gentleness, and Self-Control. To these I commit my day. If I succeed, I will give thanks. If I fail, I will seek His grace. And then when this day is done I will place my head on my pillow and rest. 

Excerpt From Max Lucado

I found this on http://godsgracefulness.com/?p=3257

very comforting :)

God bless!

Your Love is Everything. (1) A month of LOVE.

HELLO pemirsa pemirsiiii... apa khaabaaaar, rasanya udah lama banget gue ngga ngeblog. hehe (:

*betewe setiap kali kalo mau ngeblog, gue ngga berani banget de ngeliat balik post yang kemarin2. nggatau kenapa. trolololol*

anyway, hari ini gue mau share tentang LOVE!!! 

Akakakakka. baiklah, walaupun memang kadang gue orang nya lebay buangets, tapi bukan kok, bukan mau ngomong soal galau menggalau karena Valentine ini ngga ada "pacar", "gebetan" atau ngga ada yang kasi coklat ama bunga. HAHAHA! sepertinya hal-hal yang jelas sekali akan ditangisi sudah aku mensyen *aduh maaf para jomblo-ers*

but HOLD ON, here's the good news for you and I who are SINGLE-ERS. IT IS NOT THE WORST POSITION TO BE SINGLE IN VALENTINE'S DAY.

Simaaak.

 Jadi begini, tepatnya hari selasa ditengah hari sekolah, gue terima SMS dari salah satu Worship Leader di gereja gue, Collin. Hampir aja gue lupa kalo doi ngga SMS bahwa gue hari Sabtu (yang merupakan hari ini) on duty, support singer. dan ketika gue buka SMS dia, ya biasa aja laaaah, karena dia cuma bilang "Hey Stevi, you ar eon duty this week. please check your email. thank you" .. Nah, pas buka email nya yang agak gimanaaa gituh. *soalnya gue buka emailnya pas di LAB COMP sekolah, HAHA pas pelajaran ICT hari Kamis* soh, gue kaget bangeeeet waktu di email dia bilang "Stevi will sing the Verse 1 and 2 for Be With You song..." gueee KAGET! kenapaa?! karena itu key nya TINGGI BANGETS! haa!! ya, tentu saja gue yang kata keluarga gue adalah "jago kandang" kalo urusan nyanyi, agak nerves-nerves gimana gituh, karena ya bayangin! itu tuh worship song! lagu terakhir mameeen! nyanyi di depan well ngga banyak orang BUT STILL kagok lah. dan kalo aja gue nyanyi salah, key nya ek ok, gue bisa jamin semua mata yang merem pun akan terbuka dengan sangat tidak enak dipandang. *YA AMPUN GUE KOK NGERASA BAHASA INDONESIA GUE KACAU BALAU GALAU BEGINI YAK* 

anyway, bukan itu inti nya, inti nya adalah, ketika gue cek lagi email itu, ternyata ada LAGU BARU yang bakal music team nyanyiin. ya tentu saja harus didengar secara saksama, itukan lagu baru, helloww~ 

Nah, kamis. malam nya, gue puuuusinggggg buangets, karena itu tuh tugas ICT yang nonsense banget menurut gue. astagah. facepalm. susah banget nya yaowooh. -___- akhir nya gue minjem komputer sepupu gue (tuh kan gue komputer ajah minjem. hiks.), gue berserah kepada jawaban internet. ketika gue lagi browse research gitu, gue nemuin sih beberapa jawaban tapi ngga nyambungg banget, jadi gue bener-bener pusing. akhirnya gue keinget sesuatu, buka email. setelah gue buka email gue teringat sesuatu, LAGU BARU ITU.

Nah, kebetulan judulnya Your Love is Everything dinyanyikan oleh Jesus's Culture/ Chirs Quilala. dan it attracts me a lot, of course then i decided oh well i HAD to open and listen to it, otherwise..

and yeah, i opened it on Youtube, and continue to do my ICT work. when the music started to flow, i thought, hmm the music is nice.. then when it reached the verse "When I am Dry and THRISTY Lord, when I am CRYING OUT FOR MORE. I know i can TRUST IN YOUR LOVE.."

oh, tentu saja setelah mendengar lirik itu, my heart was touched. and i was doing my homework back then, and when i heard those words, DRY, THRISTY, CRYING OUT FOR MORE, well tell me, who doesn't feel that way? everyone at least ever does feel that way too. I was so frustrated back then, not just because of my studies but also some friendships stuff lah, and yeah, i had to admit that i was thirsty and DRY. but then, when i heard "... I know i can trust in Your Love.." oh maaan, i tell you. i was so touched until i cry and i stopped my work. and listen to it.

TURST. TRUST in HIM alone! why is i sometimes it's just so hard for us, HUMAN to surrender all to Him and we are still working on it, do give our BEST and He will do the rest. why is it sometimes for us sooooo hard to TRUST to Him, when we lift up our prayers, but yet we still worry about things that's happening around us. i tell you what, here's the verse always reminded me. "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. -Matthew 6:33 NIV"
it is already written in the BIBLE. we shall seek Him first then all these things, our livelihood things and more things will be given to us as well! we shall not worry!! Our God never leaves us alone! 
When we trust, we trust wholeheartedly and fully.  

"When I am dry and thirsty Lord,
And I'm crying out for more,
I know I can trust in your love.
In the darkness in the night
When I'm starving for the light
I know I can trust in Your love

You keep no records of my sin,
and you don't remember all my shame....."

YOU KEEP NO RECORD OF MY  SIN, YOU DON'T REMEMBER ALL MY SHAME.

dibagian itulah dimana gue nangis tersedu-sedu, *berlebih* *hapus bersedu-sedu* bukan lebay tapi gue tiba-tiba aja ngerasakan, yes stevi, Tuhan itu ngga pernahhh inget-inget dosa yang pernah elu buat, kenapa lu kadang harus malu sama diri lu sendiri, kenapa kadang lu harus keinget dengan dosa-dosa yang pernah lu buat sedangkan Tuhan yang Maafin aje kaga tuh inget-inget...

ya, dan gue super galau banget waktu itu. dan akhirnya gue berdoa..

"Tuhan maafkan aku karena ternyata selama ini aku udah sering banget inget2 dosa yang udah pernah aku lakuin. malah kadang aku bahkan buat ksalahan yang sama, Tuhan makasih banget atas kasih cinta Mu selama ini. semua ini anugerah bagimu.." dan jujur aja gue lupa gue doa apa aja tapi ya sekilas begitu.

dan gue juga yakin, diantara kita semua, pasti kita pernah ngerasa malu akan dosa-dosa yang pernah kita perbuat, apapun itu. ingat ya, dosa itu sama angka "berat" nya dimata Tuhan, ngga ada yang kecil, sedang atau besar, semua sama. namun kita patut bersyukur karna kasih cinta Tuhan sudah membebaskan kita dari dosa-dosa tersebut. Bukankah kita juga sudah di beri tau bahwa kita tidak tinggal di masa lalu kita namun kita tinggal di masa sekarang dan untuk masa depan kita?  never look back.

His love has set us FREE, what would we want to ask for again? 

itu adalah renungan yang bagi gue adalah renungan untuk diri gue,  renungan dari lirik pre-chorus tersebut...

sebenar nya masih banyak lagi di selantun, sebuah lagu tersebut yang gue pelajari, gue renungi. apalagi setelah gereja tadi :) 

dan sharing gue tentang LOVE kayaknya ngga kesampaen disini, besok yaaaah!!! :D *maap sekarang harus kabur dulu, si kasur sih sudah menunggu LOL. kan kata Tuhan, kita harus menjaga kesehatan jasmani dan rohani kita. maka dari itu kawans, jaga diri baik-baik yah.*

 i will leave the rest till  tomorrow :) 

i will blog again about this tomorrow :) semoga kalian stay tune, siapapun yang sudah berkenan membaca blog gue..... kalian benar-benar dahsyatttt!!!

"Akan tetapi Allah menunjukkan kasih-Nya kepada kita, oleh karena KRISTUS telah mati untuk kita, ketika kita masih berdosa. -Roma 5:8"

(: God Bless you all. <3

 see you tomorrow on my blog again!